the time traveler's wife by audrey niffenegger
"It's hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is, wondering if he's okay. It's hard to be the one who stays. I keep myself busy. Time goes faster that way. I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I'm tired. I watch the wind play with the trash that's been under the snow all winter. Everything seems simple until you think about it. Why is love intensified by absence? Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship. Now I wait for Henry. He vanishes unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is slow and transparent as glass. Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting. Why has he gone where I cannot follow?" - Clare Abshire
"After my mom died she ate my father up completely. She would have hated it. Every minute of his life since then has been marked by her absence, every action has lacked dimension because she is not there to measure against. And when I was young I didn't understand, but now, I know, how absence can be present, like a damaged nerve, like a dark bird. If I had to live on without you I know I could not do it. But I hope, I have this vision of you walking unencumbered, with your shining hair in the sun. I have not seen this with my eyes, but only with my imagination, that makes pictures, that always wanted to paint you, shining; but I hope that this vision will be true, anyway."- Henry DeTamble
"Do you ever miss him? Every day. Every minute. Every minute, she says. Yes, it's that way, isn't it?""I breathe slowly and deeply. I make my eyes still under eyelids, I make my mind still, and soon, Sleep, seeing a perfect reproduction of himself, comes to be united with his facsimile."
studio ghibili - spirited away
joe hisaishi's
one summer's day is simply so enchanting, mesmerising, serene, heartfelt, awe-inspiring (the list goes on..) and very overwhelming to me. it brings about so much emotions and feelings to it that you'd just stop, sit, close your eyes and immerse yourself in it. it's amazing really, how beautiful a picture it paints.
and it really touches me so. not the warm fuzzy christmassy kind of touching, but more of a nostalgic feel.
i love a good show with an equally wonderful soundtrack that complements it.
somewhere in the serenity of mitaka.*edit i realised that there's a feeling very evident in
one summer's day. a very strong feeling of lost. like how chihiro/sen felt when she was separated from her parents in the show, but to a much greater degree. then again maybe it's just me.
rude awakening
an incident at work today..
chief clerk: liew, ni de asshole send le ma?
liew: huh?
chief clerk: asshole!
liew: orhhh..airshow ah?
that left the rest of us at our desks chuckling to ourselves.
well, that was about some airshow attendance that my colleague liew was supposed to submit. and yea, my chief clerk couldn't pronounce the word properly which made it sound like 'asshole'.
some lighthearted humour to brighten up the mundane office life. =)
alwyn and i have been reading this very interesting book which we got from derrick. never knew he would read such stuff. oh, never judge a book by its cover they say.
and it's good that we both found things which we like from the book. some sort of reprieve perhaps? the irony of it all.
mio dolce amor.
there
when i made this final decision, i was at a loss to telling the people around me about it. i reckoned that i'd have a lot of explaining to do with regards to the rationale behind, and the sudden switch of plans. perhaps it isn't easy to convince people, there could be doubts here and there, especially when i had been so adamant in my previous decision. surprisingly, it was all not too hard. everyone willingly lent a listening ear, occasionally giving their opinions, not to the point of advices though because it's a known fact that ultimately the decision has still got to lie with me.
but thanks for not judging me, and for believing in me. all i can say is that i've been very clear-headed when i decided on this. it's a sudden realisation thing which i cannot explain. but giving it serious thought and consideration and after talking to people, i've thus decided on my future plans. being honest with myself, it's not a rash decision. and i don't want to take the easy way out anymore; hating how laidback and indecisive i had been. my only regret is that this did not come earlier. while it may be too late in a sense, it's never too late in another. i know what i want now, and what i'm heading for. and nothing's going to stop me working hard to achieve that goal.
this goes out to everybody whom i've talked to and who have been with me throughout this difficult period of time. i appreciate it a lot. =)
in the end, you're the only one left. thank you, for making me grow up, and letting me find myself. sidetrack, i think adam lambert's a fantastic singer, one of my favourite american idol contestants together with carrie underwood and david cook. love his version of
mad world. it's even more hypnotic than gary jules' i feel. and his
if i can't have you is just mindblowing. never mind that he's gay, he's an amazing singer with amazing vocals. who's kris allen?!
sixth
just had the sweetest and the most beautiful dream last night.
so much so that when the alarm went off, i could not ascertain reality, for a moment.
which thereafter struck, really hard.
